I love this girl but i dont know how to tell i told her to forget everything i told her and just be freinds but i want a relationship with maybe it will work maybe not. I just want to tell i love and kiss her but its harder than i think . Ive asked people for advice but i never works. I tell the girl how i feel. But i dont think i will ever be able to tell her. She so wonderful i love this girl i would take a bullet for her i would die for i would kill for her i would do anyrhing to make her happy but maybe im not the guy. I just want her to give me a chance and see im a wonderful guy that will show her love,respect and the truth.

I Dont Believe You!

Alys Revill, i've had a crush on you for so long now, i dont know if you will ever read this, but, oh well, i was planning on asking you out, inviting you to my house to watch a movie or something, maybe go out and graab a coffee or what-ever, then i realise you just got with that James kid, i don't know if you even like me, i doubt it, but oh well, it was worth a shot, Alys , i have NEVER felt this way before, about anybody... I Love You x
J

I have no self control. I eat all the time. I drink any kinda booze I can find. I smoke whatevers there. I do not care, just get me away from it all, who care's. I am failing school, I dont like my friends, I dont like my parents, I just want it all to go away, I dont know what I am doing. Why cant people just leave me alone to do what I want and to eat and drink what ever I want, why am I hurting anyone, I am still alive, maybe that is what hurts them.

I hate people. I think I hate all people in the world. I even hate those I love because they are just so stupid. I hate them. They do all these dumb things. They are so annoying and so dumb.

Gossip is so wrong. It is so wrong to spread rumors or to elaborate on something you think you saw or whatever, and then to spread that. People don't know how much that can affect the people they are talking about, how that might manifest itself in another's life. Last night, someone made a gossipy comment about me that held no truth; that guy's remark ended up hurting my boyfriend, hurting me, and making me cry. It's so easy to just shoot something out of your mouth without realizing the ripple effect something false can do to another's life. I am doing recognizance work now because of that other guy's stupid gossip that was totally unfounded. Seems so wrong---why should *I* pay when HE was stupid enough to say what he said ? And it's at MY expense.