i think i still love my ex, my current boyfriend is oblvious to this fact.

I split up with my ex 3 years ago

I'm inlove in my 2 year grand grand frand daughter.

luv sniffing my MIL's panties...mmmm...just yesterday i was over at her place and while she was in the LM, i was in her bath jacking off all over her sink and in her panties - next time im over at her place i want to have her suck me off...

Last weekend, my boyfriend went round to his mates for a messy night and I went round the next day to pick him up. Well, I was encouraged to drink and we'd stay the night at our friends place. One of the guys who live there is a good friend of the whole group, and the last couple of times we've been around therer, we've been KIND OF flirting. I would never have thought it meant anything until last weekend. It came to the early hours of the morning and everyone ended up on the couch watching the cricket. I was getting sleepy, decided to try and sleep on the couch next to this particular guy, but it was WAY to uncomfortable. I went to the kitchen to get a drink and my bfriend asked how I was and I said tired...he said go and sleep in D's room. At first I said, nah don't worry about it, then of course he just asked if I could sleep in his bed...of course he said ok. So I decided, why not...I'll just pass out anyway. Which of course I did until my boyfriedn came to wake me up coz he wanted to sleep with me, well we didn't have another bed to share so he decided to leave me be...after waking up I obviously realised I was next to D. I just touched his foot with mine and next thing you kow his hand is caressing my thigh and then it's on. We tumbled and rolled all over the place, he kissed me a couple of times, we didn't have sex but got pretty close... he touched me and I touched him, wasn't what I expected to find. He told me it was all he could think of...he asked me if I'd regret this the next day and I didn't believe I would. For some reason I don't EXACTLY regret this, but I do feel guilty. I was thinking that I had GULIT pains in my stomach for a couple of days, and at times if I imagined I re-lived it, I would feel randy again...I actually even got paranoid his girlfriend had a video camera set up...she's always been very jealous and suspisious of him and I guess she had a reason to be...so angry with myself though...how horrible is that?!?! But I just REALLY don't want it coming out. I really don't think it's necessary. It's only going to hurt people and I wont be doing this EVER again!! I love my boyfriend and don't ever want us to part! Especially not for something that means nothing anyway. It was just nice knowing that I can turn someone on still. I felt very sexy and very randy but also managed to stop it from going all the way. I mean, there should never have been anything to stop, but unfortunately it is done now. I just pray to God that it never comes out. I may be seeing this guy for the first time after the incedent this weekend...wish me luck...his gfriend will be there too... ARGHHHHHH!!!

Well thank-you for letting me get that off of my chest...I couldn't imagine telling ever my sister!! I just couldn't deal with the judgement...

Thank-you!

i use people to feel loved and i dont mean to. i trick myself into loving someone else. i have them fall in love with me then i realise that im not actually in love with them. Now im trapped because im sick of hurting people

I cant share with anybody because it is so shameful.Actually i hav an affair with my own cousin.I realy love her madly,she also love me but problem is our culture,our parents.I dont wanna hurt my parents.Thats why..i hav tried many times to forget her or take her as my sister but i really unable to do that.I dont kno what to do or what should i do.....