My fiance and I broke up 4 months ago and since then I have slept with her 5 times and 2 other women as well. she wants to move back and get together again. one of the girls I am seeing stoped seeing me and I felt really good with her but i keep telling my ex that i love her. why is it that i cannot tell her how i really feel?

I am going to take a year off to live in London just to escape the places we used to go.

I still love you and I always will.

#665 here.I can't stand it anymore.I have read through many interesting secrets on this site.Also some that aren't worth reading,and some just plain stupid.Whats bugging me is that there are so many people that supposedly have high school/college educations,but most can not spell or type a sentence to save their lives.My grammar may not be perfect,but I do know where the period (.)is on my keyboard.I saw one post on another site that had to be 200 words long without one period ,or any puctuation at all in fact.And this person was bragging about being an honor student in high school and wants to be a writer.I realize that english is not easy for those who don't speak it,and have no problem with the spelling in those posts.At least they try to get it right.If you pay attention in school and live in an engish speaking country you should be able to type a simple messege that makes sence.This stuff drives me up the wall.I am a high school drop out (grade 10)and have better grammar and can spell better that people that say they are in college.I really don't know how these people graduate.Ok ,I'm done venting now.

BTW:As far as my secret goes,I may have found the right guy,Read # 665 and you'll understand.

I hate myself

I am VERY attracted to women,but years ago I had a (2) sexual exp. with another guy.The first time was after a party and he asked if I would stay at his place so he wouldn't have to deal with visiting family in the morning.I didn't understand it either,I was drunk)We slept in the same bed (queen size)I woke up early in the morning to find him laying beside me ,supposedly asleep,with his hand on my crotch.I was only wearing underwear.I was shocked at fist,then found myself getting hard.I slowly removed my underwear then turned on my side to see his eyes open.He then started slowly stoking my raging hardon.I then slowly reached down to find he was also naked and hard as a rock.We stoked each other until we shot our loads on each others cocks.He then got up and went to the shower.Feeling guilty I got dressed and quietly left.A few months later I ran into the same guy at another party.When we were alone he said he needed to talk to me so we went for a walk.We ended up on top of a small hill in a field across the street.He told me he wasn't gay,just VERY horny that night.I said the same.Next thing you know our pants were off,him sliding his mouth up and down my hardon,and me stroking his.After I came,I slid my mouth over his cock and licked and sucked until he came in my mouth.I haven't seen him since (over 20 years)but still think about it and masturbate now and then.I have also discovered that I love to watch other men masterbate and have other people watch me masturbate.Male or female or both.The more the merrier as they say.As I said I love women,but thinking more and more,if I find the right guy I would like to try the oral again.

my fiance hits me but i love him, people say leave him but its 2 hard hes the only person i have in my life.